Dear Mr. Elevator Man

Nina :  I haven't been out of this hotel since it happened. I miscarried. This is a bunch of words together because I can't seem to get my words together. I hate when people say, oh well you weren't that far along. Well I say FUCK YOU! 

Happy Monday Gems and Gents! I am home from work today dealing with the pre-pms pains. This is the only time I wish I was a guy. Oh, and when I have to pee really bad and have no where to go. Yeah. That's it. Anywho Onward and Upward shall we .........................

I love when people send me random rants! Check out with my lovely cousin has to say! Can't wait until she drops!!! Ok. I know you save your blog stuff for your email but I woke up from a nap and I wanted  to have a prego rant (wrong  place wrong time). Over the past week everytime that I come in contact with a pastor they bring up the subject of weed. Usually its after they find out that I am a legal drug dealer. Over the past few years I have notice that an on going trend has been taking prescription medication for fun. When I started attending a predominantly white University I ran into a lot of people that would take prescription medication to stay awake for test. It was so normal to them. A little over a year ago I noticed that many people that I know were taking roxys. The term Roxy sounded really cool to me until I googled what they really were. I watched a girl that I was close to go from swallowing Roxys to sniffing them. Im so glad that I hate even taking ta...

I got wasted. Let's just start there. ( sidebar, I love how D writes like this is a book. LOL) I got a text from the ex saying she was pregnant. ( que usher's confession's ) Why would you text me that? That's so , well I don't know what to call it but damn you could call me!! I don't think it's mines. We always use protection. Well unless it was before we broke up. Damn!!! I don't want a baby by her. I want a baby by my wife. ( it's called STRAP UP! STUPID!) So I went to a dinner at Lamount's house, and I knew it was a bad idea from jump. Ol' girl is still mad at me about the ex but we are still rocking. You cannot guess who opened the door for me. MELLOW YELLOW!!!! I could've passed out right there. This is a party, so we are eating and drinking. I mean I am sleeping upstairs so I don't care about how much I"m drinking. So you know the more you drink, the more you pee. I went to the bathroom in Lamount's room because the...

Backstory - D is still sleeping with the ex and the new girl ... the ex confronted the new girl .. he doesn't know how she found out. Thinks it's from IG. He doesn't understand why the new girl is mad because technically they aren't official. <insert eyeroll > 

Yesterday I had my hunny take a photo of me and I had a break down. I instantly went from workout clothes on to in the bed crying. Yes I CRIED!! I have been working out since JAN!!! I pictured myself being way further than this. I know we see ourselves differently than other people see me, but when I looked at that picture I saw Winnie The Pooh. Right now I do NOT want to hear your " oh it gets better " CRAP! I want to go to the store and eat all the shit I haven't eaten because I have been trying to lost weight. It's so hard to be a black woman in this day and age because everyone wants you to look a certain way. I know that I will NEVER look that way, and I am fine with that. The bottom part of my body is damn near all muscle, its the top that does all that moving. What the hell I'm not fine with is this JUICY ASS FACE! So lets run down some shit I'm tired of hearing and seeing ... yes this will have LOTS of cussing ... 1. I'm tired of women's f...