Dear Fatherless Children

My emotions are EVERYWHERE this week. Thanks PMS.   I also had a lot on my mind last week that I was in no mood to actually blog. BBBUUUTTT I'm BACK!

While visiting home a few weeks ago, one of my aunt's asked me about how my relationship with my father is. I told her the truth. What relationship? I know he is alive, that's pretty much as far as it goes. She goes on to tell me we need to work it out, I am still clueless on what the issue is, my brother and sister are there telling me I'm stubborn. The Truth is I.AM.TIRED.



I remember seeing my niece break down crying because he father said he was coming by, and never did. I remember the look on her mom's face, the same look my mom had when I would scream bloody murder about going to my dad's house. I hated that look on both of their faces. Why can't these men just come through! She didn't call you, you called her! So again, her heart is broken because of you. I remember telling her, Hey Hey Hey! Stop all that crying. He will come in a few days probably. When he comes, you tell him how it made you feel! I would crack a joke like, you were going to be bored anyways. SMH. I shouldn't have to do that.

Now I wasn't one of those kids that father didn't have a father in his life. My father was SPOILED ROTTEN. I just don't think he was ready to be a father to the kids he had fathered. Hell to this day I believe he was only ready when my youngest sister was born. But he has only been a father to her. I don't hold this against him. It just taught me at an early age that people are liars. People will do what they want, regardless if they are half of your DNA. It taught me to have a tough shell. It encouraged me to do well, so that maybe one day at least he could say; well she did well for herself.

So Dear Fatherless Children,
There are many of us out here living and striving. As a female, I do not have issues with men. I don't trust easy but hey, in this world who would. I am NOT in jail. I have never BEEN to jail. I do NOT have multiple kids by multiple men "trying to fill the void". I know who I am and I understand that my dna father will not be the father I wanted him to be. You can understand that too. There are many father figures around you and will help shape you into a great person. Get to know your family on that side. Mine are GREAT! I get to know why I do certain things, liked certain things, and sometimes those fathers will be that father you are reaching out for. Respect this person, try to get to know then as much as you can. And if they fail on their end, after you have extended yourself many of times .... know that your job is done. Cry, scream, wonder what went wrong, then go on to show them that THEY are missing out.

xoxoxo
Moving On