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Dear MEM, Separate to See

Dear MEM, 

While you're in your place and your fiance located in her home, do you see it? When you roll over at night, to the cold side of the bed; do you feel it? When you're watching a movie and your laughter is the only one you hear, do you hear it? Has reality not set in yet? The reality that you are engaged yet you don't eat together, live together, sleep together, or talk to each other often. This time now, that you are getting alone, is your time to SEPARATE & SEE. It's time for you to realize that maybe I, we, rushed into this. And maybe I thought this was what I wanted but in actuality, I really just want to be loved. I really just wanted someone to play in my hair while we are watching tv, fall asleep mid movie then wake up asking what happened. I just wanted someone to roll over into my arms and tell me my breath is horrid this morning, then laugh and get under the covers to avoid it. Have you realized you just wanted someone to argue with about what to eat tonight, JUST to end up at a fast food place. Realizing that you wanted someone to love you back. Realizing that, you still feel single and without even though you have a "fiance". See I can realize what you want. I realize what your yearning for. What you want can't be bought? Because techinally you have "bought it", but it doesn't feel the same does it? Oh I know, I know, when you do finally get married it will change. No matter what you build your house on, if the foundation isn't layed correctly; soon enough, your house will fall.




xoxoxo
Love is free 

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