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Church Struggle - Am I The Only One?

Now on to the real deal holy-field ... I am OVER CHURCH! Whew .. that feels really good to say. When I was younger and I went to church is not the same church that I see today. I first felt this struggle when I went off to college. The church I would go to would HARP on giving, and basically made me feel horrible for not being able to give. I don't care that it is 10% of what I have, if I don't have enough to sustain my living situation, I'm not giving it. I would see students giving their LAST, when they knew their parents wouldn't be sending any money for another week or two, so that they could get a blessing. I saw these same students packing extra food up to sneak back to the dorms because they had no more money. Because they were counting on that "blessing" you promised them to come through when they have you their last $20. Yes Jesus only ask for 10% of that, but there is always a program that is asking for a lending hand. 

I think at this point I am a more spiritual person , who loves to worship God with other people from time to time. I don't know, because I'm not among them, any other religious group that are more do as I say not as I do than Christians. I have seen them judge people, including myself, walk past the poor and turn up their noses ( when God said ALWAYS give to the poor ), and more. I don't really want to be apart of that group. I don't want to be labeled with that image. I just want to walk right, do good by people, and live in my purpose. I have my own personal relationship with God, and that works for me. I know that if I pray for something and stand still, it's not going to happen. I know I have to put work behind my faith in God to obtain what I want. He's the big homie, got him on speed dial. I have preachers that I really enjoy, and I am fine with a subject being talked about that I may fall short in. BUT as of today ... I would MUCH rather give my( 10%) money to a homeless family, than to a pastor who is going to go buy a jet.

I'm trying to keep this as short as possible, and if you live is a small town you probably have no idea of what I am speaking of. That's ok. I just want to know is there anyone else out there that feel on the fence about churches/preachers now a days? 

xoxo
Shanice




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